We discuss coming out during the holidays. Whether it is coming out about your sexuality, or lifestyle the holidays can be a rough time to come out. Do you want everyone to know all at once or do you want to slowly let people know?
Are you in love with Pumpkin spice? Do you love a certain corporate coffee chain? Do you wear fasionable scarves? Does Erik hate you? The answer to all these questions is… YES! This episode we rant about people being basic and Erik becomes irate about Muffin Tops (the food not the body type) While Angela tries to not be offended that Erik judges her favorite coffee spot.
A good friend of mine competed in the NPC Bodybuilding competition in my town this past weekend. I went to support her because she went from obese to skinny to bodybuilder. I admire her so much for her journey. The competition showed me that I want to be just like these people. I was just in awe of the amazing shape everyone was in. These people were in the BEST shape. The picture above is how I would imagine my body shape to be if I did actually pursue bodybuilding. I have extremely large calves and thighs with broad shoulders.
I have no idea how to even start. I have done some searching on Google. I feel like I will need a trainer, but money is tight so that’s barely feasible. I am wishing that I could just sit down with a trainer and get pointers. Then maybe check in from time to time to get guidance. I really don’t think there’s many out there that would do that free of charge. I don’t personally know many bodybuilders. My friend has a trainer so she just goes by whatever he teaches her for her needs. I am currently on bodybuilding.com and using their app to workout with. If anyone reading this wants to work with me for pretty cheap then I would greatly appreciate the help! This task is extremely huge and I feel a lot of anxiety doing it on my own.
I have always loved lifting. It makes me feel powerful. I have always thought that I needed to be skinny to feel good about myself. When I saw the women in the competition this weekend who looked like the picture above, it just clicked in my mind. I knew this is what I wanted to do next. When I had gotten down to 160 the first time, I still didn’t feel good about my body. There was a lot of loose skin on my arms, stomach, and thighs. I always complain that I don’t have knees due to my large thighs. My quadriceps are huge. I saw the same thing this weekend, but it looked so much better because you could tell that it was muscle not just fat legs.
Now where do I start???
I really have no clue, but I will be doing a lot of research!!
Wish me luck and feel free to comment if you have tips for me!!
I don’t like enjoying things anymore.
Don’t misread that sentence, I still enjoy things all the time. I just don’t like it.
Let me explain… I love Halloween. It is a great holiday. All its variations that are celebrated are super interesting, each with their own flair. Reverence for the dead, calling up or thwarting evil, and even just celebrating dressing up. It is great, plus the season is the best one for comfort…it isn’t hot as balls & it isn’t covered in sheets of ice. Plus, it has its own flavors that embody it.
The problem is when I was growing up some people loved, some hated it. You would have the kid who had an elaborate costume who obviously loved Halloween. Then there was that douche bag who tied a shitty towel around his neck…his heart wasn’t even in it.
There was a clear line between fanatic & reluctant participant.
Now? Now, everyone fucking LOVES Halloween. Not a lot of people enjoy it. Everyone by their own online admission fucking lives & breathes pumpkin spice from their Jack O’Lantern faces that are bobbing to Thriller, while cruising about town in their refurbished hearse. There is no clear line…the is NO line. Everyone was born sucking candy corn from their mother’s teats.
Everyone wants to deep throat a jug of warm cider while walking with their beloved through a graveyard.
It pisses me off.
Not the fanaticism, but the fact that there is ONLY fanaticism. Not just with Halloween… everything. Holidays. Movies. TV shows. Music.
Speaking of music, think about how everyone is heartbroken when some musician(or celebrity) dies. I am not saying they shouldn’t or cannot be heartbroken, but your over emotional bullshit rings false.
I mean I cried at the end of Puff the Magic Dragon when he left at the end. I bawled. I mean honestly, I don’t think I would’ve made it through first grade without him. He made me into the man I am today. Every year on the anniversary of his departure back to his magical homeland I crack open a Capri-Sun and wear my custom Puff the Magic Dragon memorial shirt…crying and angry that the closest we ever got to getting him back was Spyro…fucking Spyro.
This is why I don’t like enjoying things anymore. I can enjoy them, but there is nothing special about it. It is as if everyone is making a concerted effort to make everything i enjoy plain old vanilla bullshit.
All the weird shit I liked is now nothing but lukewarm tofu seasoned with tap water.
Do I still consume it? FUCK YES… but now I tend to do it out of spite of all the homogenized bastards hooting and hollering about how amazing it is.
We need a secret handshake or some symbol so true fans know how to identify each other. I appreciate your enthusiasm Karen, but I think I will hang over here with the people who wear fishnet arm sleeves in July.
Now I gotta go dig through truly obscure shit just so Harold & Laura over there don’t fucking ruin it with their suburban excitement.
When I was 21, I woke up one day with my vision all screwed up. I thought my glasses were bent and I realized quickly that it was my eyes that were messed up. As the day progressed, my vision would slowly go back to normal. I consulted an eye doctor who ran some vision tests and couldn’t find any issues. So they recommended I get an MRI and even blood tests to check for diabetes. Diabetes runs in my family and I was pretty overweight at the time. I had the MRI and blood tests on the same day. I had to fast for the blood tests. The MRI was first and by the time I got to the blood tests, I was super hangry. I am sitting in the chair getting blood drawn at my doctor’s office. In comes the doctor who says to the nurse “Don’t let her leave. We have to talk to her about the MRI test results.” I am like seriously? I am so hungry!! My mother was there with me and I told her that it was probably a brain tumor and they will have to remove it because it was compressing my eyeballs. She wasn’t extremely amused by my humor. After they sucked the life out of me, we were lead to an exam room to wait for hours on the doctor while wasting away to nothing, because I hadn’t eaten yet and it was around 2 pm. The doctor came in and showed us the MRI scans. They told us that he thought that the lesions on the white matter in my brain were active as well as old Multiple Sclerosis lesions. This would be causing my vision to be screwed up. The next step was to admit me into the hospital and run other tests which included a spinal tap and putting me on steroids to control the exacerbation. So at this point my mother is crying and I am just like can we get food before we have to go to the hospital? I literally only wanted food at this point and could care less that I was just given this scary diagnosis. They told us it would take a couple hours for the hospital to be ready for us. As we leave to find sustenance, I looked at my mother who was still crying and told her “Well at least it wasn’t a brain tumor right?” She was still not amused by the morbid humor. I spent a week in the hospital getting tests and prednisone to control my symptoms. I went into a deep depression after that. I did do a ton of research though. I was given injections that made me feel sick every other day with these hideous injection site marks. They were big round and red circles. I still have a bit of a scar on my stomach. I decided that something had to give.
I was tired of feeling like shit all the time.
When I was diagnosed, I was told that some of the lesions were probably from about 4 years before. I read that marijuana high in CBD was really good for controlling MS symptoms. It has been shown to help with managing symptoms like: improving spasticity, chronic pain of extremities, tremors, emotional dysfunctions, fatigue, double vision, bowel and bladder dysfunctions, dysfunctions of walking and balance and memory loss. It hit me that I had actually just quit smoking it on a daily basis because my job didn’t allow it. I realized that I was actually self medicating the entire time and the minute I stopped, my body freaked out. I actually had to stop taking the injections anyway due to getting pregnant. I decided not to start them again.
In my research, I read that diet and exercise were also huge factors in controlling MS symptoms. Some of the best diets to follow are: Paleo, Mediterranean Diet, Gluten Free Diet, and Swank Diet. Almost all the diets recommend avoiding highly processed food, foods with high glycemic index and food that is high in saturated fat. Most of the diets also recommend reducing consumption of fatty red meat and increasing consumption of fruits and vegetables. They are all based on eating fresh food and nothing that’s boxed.
My work gave us a personal trainer and a nutritionist really cheap to promote health and wellness, because we worked in a call center. We sat down the whole time we worked and the insurance company was offering lower rates if we participated. So I started working on losing weight after I had my first daughter. I lost over 100 pounds even with my work laying us off and I had to continue my weight loss journey without the personal trainer and nutritionist. Jillian Michaels became my new trainer. Doing her videos really helped keep me on track.
I decided to try the Paleo Diet. It really did help me lose weight, but it was really expensive to keep going. I did eventually switch to just eating fresher foods and and lean meats. I have tried many different diets. I have found that low carb diets work better for me. Foods that aren’t processed and low in carbs work really well for my system. Highly processed foods make my body feel really crappy. If I start eating really badly, my body will instantly let me know. Most of the time I get pain in my ribs.
I do not regret getting this diagnosis because it told me that I have to change my ways. If I didn’t take care of my body then it was going to make my life hell. Not too long after my diagnosis, my mother started having health issues as well. She chose not to heed the advice of her doctors. My mother was not going to give up the bad food and drinking only Pepsi all day. My mother’s health continued to decline and I didn’t want that for myself. My mother passed away at 56. I don’t want to be like her. I want to live my healthiest life and live as long as possible.
There is no real cause or cure for MS. There are only ways to control it. Here lately I have met several people who have it. I had not met very many who had it until this year. I am not sure if that means that it is something more and more people are getting diagnosed with or if I just happen to meet more people with it all of a sudden. I am hoping it is the latter. I am lucky that mine isn’t aggressive and I am able to live a very normal life.
If you would like to learn more about MS or think you might have it, just google Multiple Sclerosis and you will find many great resources. If you think you may have it, definitely get with your doctor. Don’t ignore your body if it is trying to give you signs. My huge sign before the eyesight issues was extreme fatigue all the time. I can now tell you if it is raining before looking out the window. Rain has a huge impact on my energy levels.
Do you or anyone you know have MS? What lead to your diagnosis? Comment below and let me know!
We may have drunk in our title, but we are aware that many struggle with substance abuse. This peidemic has grown substatntially over the years, and has impact us all. We invite Justin Calloway, who works at Road to Recovery, Inc., on to talk about rehabilitation and sobriety. Find us on iTunes & www.drunkndeviant.com
If you or someone you know needs help here are some places you can contact
SAMHSA- Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration
SAMHSA’s National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357), (also known as the Treatment Referral Routing Service) or TTY: 1-800-487-4889 is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders. This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. Callers can also order free publications and other information.
Treatment Locator– click here
DrugAbuse.com- An American Addiction Centers Resource
Website- click here
Angela & I discuss the various things that turn us on…surprisingly Andre the Giant comes up in conversation. Maybe it’s noses, or hands, or bald women.
Also Burt makes another appearance in the background wandering around shaking his cone due to getting fixed.
What turns you on?