Coming Out During the Holidays

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-v8sbk-a0d420

We discuss coming out during the holidays. Whether it is coming out about your sexuality, or lifestyle the holidays can be a rough time to come out. Do you want everyone to know all at once or do you want to slowly let people know? 

Logan’s Leaving LEAVING*Special Episode*

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-zk9bc-9fac9e

Logan our friend and guest host is leaving the amazing state of Indiana for boring old Florida, but for the greatest of reasons. We had him on for a show before he moves, and we talk about Florida, theme parks, mythical cultural appropriation, word games Erik plays to amuse himself. We are joined by Em, our friend from our previous poetry episode 

Talking Poetry w/ Em

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-mjekz-9fab3f

We return after a hiatus with our guest, Em, a poet. We discuss inspiration, theme, and some of the difficulty finding a poetry community. Em puts up with our digressions and shares two of her works with us. If poetry is something you write, or have an interest in join us. 

Dating Disasters

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-ywadj-9ee053

We discuss dating disasters we have dealt with in our not so stellar dating history. 

 

Writing Fever!!

I have been writing for National Novel Writing Month since November 1st, so I have been pretty busy on fiction and not blogging other than daily updates on my other site

So for my Savage Soliloquy this week, since I didn’t get irritated enough to find a topic, I am going to share a selection of what I have written. The basics of the story are this:

After the apocalypse humanity is raptured to heaven. The world is sectioned into varying types of “Hell” and people are scattered all over, trapped in the apocalypse with monsters of all types. 

We follow a character named Jacob Cross, who lives in a world of night where the vampires have taken over. He survives by escorting people safely throughout town, fighting vampires as he goes. 

When he finds out his daughter is alive in another plane of Apocalypse he sets out to find his way to her. Along the way he must learn his true heritage and role as a djinn, and find his true power. 

Following is a first draft train wreck of Jacob learning the history of the Djinn. Hope you enjoy it!

 

 

 

“You heard about Adam & Eve, and all the stuff about apples, right?” Mama Ti asked.

“Of course,” he replied.

“Well, that ain’t all. Most folks, they think everything was said an done in a week. Now, that is just silly. No things took a long time before the world started spinning, and snakes were giving people fruit.

“God created humans on the sixth day, but he created the heavens and earth on the first day. That includes angels, harps, halos, and all that. Now, angels are interesting. They think, live, and do things just like humans do. Except they don’t have the one thing, free will. While humans were made of dirt, or clay. Angels were made of air. They were the messengers of God. If he told them to jump they were obliged to jump. There wasn’t any question or argument because they couldn’t without free will.

“Most people think it jumps from angels on the first day to humans on the sixth, but it doesn’t. He created the whole world, and everything that ever lived during that week, animals and all. Thing is he also created other types of creatures too. Ones that most people either never see or they never notice. One of those types of beings God created are called Djinn.

“Now djinn, what most people call genies, are made of smokeless fire. It could be some type of energy, no one really knows. Well, the one thing Djinn have that angels don’t have is free will. In addition to that they have a few similarities to angels, just without being forced to do whatever God tells them to do.

“So, you have all these creatures, and beings wandering around God’s creation. The djinn are a proud race. Most of them are as loyal as they are fierce. They were powerful too. They fought among themselves, full-blown wars took place before mankind was a twinkle in His eye. During that time they also had access to all the knowledge available. They learned about nature, sciences, mathematics, all of that. They also had access to God’s all knowing thought.

“Now not even the angels could stand directly in God’s presence, and neither could the djinn. That is why there were the Heavens. The angels could access the highest heaven. That way they could get their instructions to go do this or that. Whatever He needed them to do.

“The djinn could reach more of a mid-Heaven, they could hear some but not all of the information God was passing out. But, it was enough for them to learn from. So, they formed a proper society with leaders and systems of rules.

“They took that knowledge and that wilfulness, and fought their wars. They did this for a long long time. Over time, they had factions. Each group thought they were better than the other group. This lead to a caste system, and a high court made up of individuals from all the various castes. They made the tough choices, when they needed to be made.

“They even had a leader who all the djinn followed loyally. His name was Shayteen, and he was the strongest and some say the most wise. He was also arrogant and prideful. Now, he was loyal to God as much as any angel, but willingly. He was given access to the highest heaven, the only djinn known to attain that position.

“So, on the sixth day, God calls all of creation to see his new masterpiece, Adam. The animals even came to praise this new creation, as did the angels. The djinn, lead by Shayteen, came also. God then told all assembled that Adam (humanity) would rule over all his creation. Then after this decree all were asked to bow before Adam.

“Each group came, one by one, bowing and pledging their obedience. Animals. Angels. All of them. That is until the djinn came forward. Shayteen stood in front of Adam. Then raised his voice to the heavens, ‘What can this creature do that I can not do better? I have sat at the foot of God and learned all the knowledge in the heavens. I have explored every inch of Earth and creation, and learned all it has to offer. Even my own kind have learned of war, magics, and society. I have done everything, and after all I have done, I am told to bow before this thing made of dirt and mud. I am told to swear my allegiance and my obedience to Adam? Adam, who has done nothing and knows nothing of this Earth and nothing of the Heavens. I refuse.’

“With that declaration Shayteen turned his back to Adam, and began to leave. The other djinn, knowing the power and greatness of God, still were loyal and prideful to a fault. One by one they all turned from Adam, without giving any sign of humility or obedience. Only solidarity with their leader.

“As this was all new, no one anticipated what the consequences might be. They didn’t even think there would be any. God might be loving, but he is also known to be a vengeful God, full of wrath. The refusal of the djinn to bow as he demanded, and the sheer arrogance of Shayteen infuriated God.

“So much so, that he shortly called creation together again. He presented Adam again. Asking in front of all those assembled if the djinn still refused to bow. Thus, a second time, they refused. This time the djinn did not speak a single word. God then did something none of them expected.

“He called Shayteen forward. He asked if he was too good to bow before his God. In response the djinn leader bowed, back turned from Adam. He was asked again if he still refused to accept Adam’s dominion. The djinn remained silent, unmoving.

“It was then that God commanded from that point on all djinn would live in the shadow of mankind. The djinn would be required to serve all of humanity in life and in death. Especially in death. The djinn with all of their knowledge, abilities, and power were tied to Adam’s will and desire. Forever they would be barred from the highest heaven until they obeyed His command.

“That being said, the djinn erupted in protest. Some bellowing loud enough to make the very ground shake. Some of the more warlike djinn began attacking whatever they could, fellow djinn or otherwise. There were many who just broke down sobbing and begging forgiveness, their loyalty damning them as much as the other djinn. Shayteen, however did none of these things.

“He slowly rose to his feet, turning towards Adam. He walked to within inches of God’s chosen one. Then he spoke, and all the djinn stopped as if frozen, listening to their leader:

“ ‘If we are to be in mankind’s shadow we will call them into the darkness. Away from the light. If we are to serve them in life & death, we will make every moment an obstacle. Even in death they will find no peace. If we are tied to one another, then we will be the noose around your neck. Your anchor keeping you from ever knowing the highest heaven. If our Father forsakes me, brother, then I forsake you.’

“Then they all departed, leaving creation. Oh they returned, of course. How do you think Eve ever got that Apple? That apple was the first action taken in an eternal war. Over the ages, the djinn have found creatures of like mind and purpose. Vampires, demons, ghosts, and damn near everything that you’d consider monsters were influenced by Shayteen.

“Now, that isn’t to say there aren’t good djinn. Free will is an amazing thing. Djinn can worship whatever they wish. They can be good or bad. The can be you and they can be me. But, we all carry the burden of Shayteen within us. Even now that the world has gone bad, Apocalypse or not, we all have a choice to make.

“What side do we serve before it’s all said an’ done?”

 

End of October and Weight Loss Competition Results

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Starting weight: 220 on 8/1. Ending weight: 198 on 10/31. 22 pounds in 3 months!

The only bad news is I was not in the top 3 for the competition. I was number 6. Which I am not mad about. I didn’t get any money though which would have been nice. I also didn’t have a ton of weight to lose so I pretty much figured I wouldn’t win, but the possibility showed itself so I decided to try for it anyway. I am going to keep going after this because these are only the beginning of what I would like to accomplish. I am really liking the way my body is shaping up and excited to see what I can accomplish.

I have been working a crazy schedule lately and it is finally starting to slow down after this week. I will have more time during the day to get my workouts in and be able to continue where I want to go. I may lose a few more pounds then work on the bodybuilding idea I had. I haven’t started that because I have 2 jobs now and with Halloween and stuff, I had no time. Thanksgiving and Christmas aren’t super huge in our house so I can finally focus on what I need to do. I also have a burlesque show this week that I was getting ready for. After that show, I will have my mornings open for what I want to get done in the gym again.

I am getting to the point of having to do a new workout program again so I need ideas! Let me know if you have any favorite programs! If you have good bodybuilding programs, that would be awesome too!

Thanks for being with me on this wild and crazy journey!

Angela

*Fit Bitch in Training*

Problems with Getting Older

https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-bc45p-9e40d3

The effects of age are a pain in the butt. Angela and Erik discuss the issues with getting older, and the problems with young people. Erik dislikes answering questions for some reason.